stuck

i dunno what to write about anyway.. il just waste my time staring at the monitor of the computer which i have been in front of for the last few days now...

and that's it..







terminated.

So this is me...

Im caught in the middle of something
and my thoughts in a rollercoaster ride
Can anybody hear what singin
i just wanna run and hide..

this is true; this is me..
why cant nobody see, see right through me..
im not allowed to speak my mind
im free falling away..
can you hold my hand...forever...?

barely making it.. but still alive and breathing..(",)

nyak.. ala ako msbi.. hehehe...(",)

andami xc ggwin.. not that im complaining.. hehehe.. (define sembreak.) sows.. not that it matters though.. i think this is a bit better so as not to let myself wallow in complete silence and drown in my own sea of thoughts and never make it alive..(",)

there's so much in my mind right now aside from the things that i have to do.. but unfortunately, i wont be able to share my thoughts right now for the following reasons:

1. id like to keep this to myself for the time being
2. there's just so many things to do and so little time slloted..
3. im not sure if telling it wud be the right thing to do..

i think thats it for now.. hehehe.. the whole point of this post? uhhh.. nothing significant.. just wnna share some of my thoughts right now..


*i entrusted this fragile heart of mine to someone who i thought can handle it with care.. but that someone eventually broke it, though not meaning to.. now im afraid to entrust it to another coz its shattered pieces might not endure further pain.. but it never occurred to me that entrusting it to someone just might be the cure, for that someone may know how to mend my broken heart... and now, because of that, its just a matter of taking chances, believing in love and following the heart..*

I'm Losing Me

I'm barely makin through the day now..
I barely see the sky above..
I never get to smile so long..
I never get to sing my song..

And now I'm running across the four-walled room
with my eyes blinded and im lookin like a fool..

And I wanna say this to you
I'm losing me..
I wanna hold on something real
I wanna feel..
Coz I dont wanna feel this way
that I'm losing me..

Dark clouds hover 'bove my head now..
And tears wanna fall from my eyes..
I dont know where to go to from here..
But i dont wanna lose the fight..

When there's just so much here left to do
I wanna leave it all behind for you..

I'm losing it
everythin seems to close in on me..
I'm losing it
i feel so cold and i cant see
I'm losing it
but I never want to lose the only thing thats real
in my life

you..


Gandang gabi.. two days to go before the exams.. one day before the dlsucet.. none before i go crazy.. hahaha.. just kiddin'..just wanna take it a lil bit easy before pushing myself again.. hehehe.. i get tired too (give an hour to rest..that would be fine).. but that seldom happens.. blame the adrenalin, blame the energy drnk, blame the motivation, blame the inspiration(heehee..don't..).. im okay though.. (breathe.. breathe. breathe..!!!) hehehe..

**all they want is a few days down, all that you need a little time to drown.. its to be expected with all the weight you carry 'round.. all you want is a few days down..***

gudluck on your every endeavor and be sure to make it through alive.. hehehe.. (not so much of a positive "'goodluck' but at least..)

take care always.. keep a shield (both front and back) for boulders that may attempt to crush every bit of you and for the knives that may attempt to stab you.. hehehe.. (not a very moving advice, aint it? but still an advice anyweiz..)

hahaha.. so much for my thoughts right now..(",)

uhmm.. i wanna apologize for the mistakes and shortcomings.. this is just me anyweiz.. please accept my apology..(",)

and i wanna say 'thank you' to greatest people on earth who makes my days more bearable and tolerable..(",) most especially to one of the sweetest person ive met..(",)

tata for now.. hav to go.. hav to do lots-a-things.. or i can just sleep..(",)

take care everyone.. hope you have a great weekend ahead of you.. never forget to be grateful for everyone who cares and loves you.. that's one great thing that you should keep in mind..(",) gudnyt and sweetdreams..(",)